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I guess i set off wrongly. Because I set off to know her as a person. I didn't set off to take the breath out of her. Sank too much into friendship. Thinking that like me, she will see one day that romance can evolve out of friendship. Yet who am I to ask that of her? I know its not wrong for me to have done so. Just that, things doesn't work this way. Girls are girls afterall. I must have been dreaming to think that she is an idealist. How I wish i can just press a reset button and have another short at it from the start. To start afresh. I think this is one times good example of how cuo guo le yong yuan bu ke neng zai hui tou. But still I am glad I brought happiness to her life and was there for her. Maybe I should buy what I always say. Its the same. So what am I still looking for. Romance and friendship, two sides of th same coin. Standing face to face, we hold the coin between us, looking at different sides of it. Mei you se me hao ke si de. How does she expect me to just let it go when she mean so much to me?Aiya. Fuck it and just continue to be happy.Afterall, its all that matters. There is no such thing as getting over until someone else crosses your life. We can both go back and try again but I guess she will rather dwell in the beauty of the present. You really want me to get over with?